Sunday, December 14, 2008

horrible cold=best diet ever

ok, just kidding.

but seriously, not being able to taste anything makes not eating more than i should cake. and funny how when i'm sick i all of a sudden only eat things that are good for me and just stop eating when i feel full...such a difficult concept most of the time.

maybe i should get my tastebuds removed permanently.

...i will however, be glad when i can start walking (anywhere) without hacking. and i will also be glad to have my voice back in its normal register instead of about 2 octaves lower than my brother.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

bob wiley vs. superwoman

"the simplest way to put it is, i have problems...dizzy spells, nausea, cold sweats, hot sweats, difficulty swallowing, blurred vision, involuntary trembling, dead hands, numb lips, fingernail sensitivity, pelvic discomfort."

on monday this week, i woke up with the worst neck/back pain i have had in about 5 years. i don't know what i did exactly, but i haven't been able to turn my head either way for the past few days, despite several visits to the chiropractor, the massage therapist, physical therapist and handfuls and handfuls of advil etc. etc. aside from being just generally inconvenient, i am mostly ticked because after thanksgiving last week, i started being good about walking again. but this neck thing makes the treadmill impossible, and it pretty much just hurts to move. i also had to miss both of my pilates classes this week. boo.

urrgh. it's always something. i just get annoyed w/ myself because, especially as it relates to exercise, there are many, many times that i feel willing and motivated to exercise, but something else (like a bum knee, bad back, migraine headache, allergies etc.) gets in the way.

or in other words, i feel like i'm bob wiley. only with real symptoms...

i guess i inherited my mom's somewhat fragile physiology, much to my chagrin. i'm just still in denial that i am, in fact, HIGH MAINTENANCE. instead, i like to pretend that i'm superwoman. (please, anything but bob wiley!) i hate feeling fragile. i hate having to take the time to go to all of the various appointments that my body apparently requires just to maintain basic function. it's annoying. it's not "me." i hate being one of "those" kind of people... and sometimes i get a little careless, or rebellious or pretend that all of my "ailments" don't really exist. like last week, i skipped my weekly massage to save a few $$, i didn't go to pilates, i didn't stretch at night like i know i need to, and i spent wayyy too much time on the couch which always causes huge neck/headache issues for me. dumb, right?

so, it's time to be a grownup and deal with reality. it's time to accept that i am, in fact, HIGH MAINTENANCE. and unfortunately, reality for me is that skipping a massage or sitting on the couch too long will cause problems. problems that prevent me from exercising...or even moving normally.

funny too, that the times in my life that i've been most focused on just general/overall total-body health/wellness--not being skinny or trying to avoid dealing w/ "ailments"--were the times that i was magically the skinniest. connection? hmm.

"i feel good, i feel great, i feel wonderful. i feel good, i feel great, i feel wonderful..."

oh, and p.s., if you didn't grow up in a family that watched "What About Bob?" every week for about 10 years like i did, that is where these ridiculous quotes come from.