Sunday, October 28, 2007


i officially declare today as VICTORY OVER THE CRAFTY TABLE DAY!

for those who haven't been reading from day one...i work with my brother in the film industry (sometimes)'s one of my several random "jobs"...anyway, this summer we filmed a movie over a period of about a month and i gained approx. 15 lbs from the craft services table (aka "the crafty" it's known in the biz). the crafty is usually stockpiled with insane quantities of snack food-- treats, bagels, candy, cookies, donuts, soda, juice, chips, crackers...basically anything to keep the movie crew and actors happy and caffeinated.

crafty tables and i have a bad history. the first movie we shot (2004) i gained about 10 lbs...then lost most of that. the second movie we shot (2005) i gained about 10 lbs which i've never been able to get rid of...and then this movie (#3) i gained another 15 lbs..which i'm now trying to get rid of.

typically, i just lose all self control in the face of crafty. when i think back to this summer and my bad bad swedish fish+bagels+red vines+cookies+donuts crafty-binges it seems like a miracle that i didn't gain 50 lbs. no seriously. if anyone has ever been on a movie set, you know how much waiting around you scurry to get something done, and then you sit and wait, sometimes for 3, 4, 5, 6 hours...but you can't leave. there's nothing to're stressed, tired and grouchy and bored. and everyone hangs out at the crafty and eats and gabs. and then lo and behold, you gained 25 lbs. without even trying. and you develop a nasty sugar habit that is really really hard to break.

WELL. anyway. today we had to shoot some stuff that we didn't get during the, i was confronted with my arch-nemesis again.

but this time i won!

i didn't eat any of the cookies, no crackers, i didn't eat the fries that came with lunch and i exercised incredible restraint and only had 1 (!) almond joy mini candy bar. 1 people. just one. i couldn't believe it. i have never had just one of anything candy-related. ever. i came prepared with my kashi granola bars for snacks and i just didn't eat everytime i got bored. miracle. it's like an out-of-body experience or something.

really, truthfully, i didn't think i had it in me. but, i'm glad i proved myself wrong.

so...all told i have 24 flex left for the week...not too shabby.

ok, enough bragging.

Happy Birthday Bri!!!!!


Happy Birthday!!! I hope you are having a fabulous time in Europe... and eating some sort of yummy pastry (with a candle in it) and doing something fun!!

Friday, October 26, 2007

up up and away

I gained .5 lbs this week. boo-urns. I have too many other things to worry about than my weight though, so...whatever. Luckily, my scale and I won't be seeing each other for a few weeks. I'll be back mid-Nov. Until then, Meg is going to hold down the fort. And I'll do my best to resist going overboard on the lovely foods I run across. Austrian pasties are yucky, right? Anyway, have a good couple weeks - I'll have to catch up on everyone's blogs when I get back.

Thursday, October 25, 2007

Save the fishies!

A post by HotThickChick today reminded me that I keep forgetting to post about the seafood watch list. If you eat seafood, you should take a look - the list helps you see what foods are best for the environment and sustainability, and which are the best for you. They have regional guides that print out to fit in your wallet. Ever since seeing the list two years ago, I've been trying to behave myself...I find it easy to follow except for the shrimp - domestic only? That's rough. Even Whole Foods only sells two kinds of U.S. shrimp and I don't like either. Boo. (I got blinky here)


I have a confession to make. Yesterday I went over my flex points. You see, I am cleaning out the fridge, and we had these meatballs (Ikea, so yummy and fatty) in the freezer to eat up, so I had some. Then I went to TJ's to get snacks for the cat sitters. Then we decided we should sample some of the snacks, because the sitters will be more likely to eat from an open package. S-M-R-T. So, I kinda stopped counting.

Then today, I just kind of gave up. I didn't do anything horrible. But I did decide that I needed a caramel macchiato and an espresso brownie from Starbucks. bad bad Bri. Lesson? Don't ever allow myself to go over flex points, because I can't control it after that. Thankfully, I reset tomorrow. I was trying to decide if I should count while I'm in Europe or not, but I think I have my answer. MUST...ALWAYS...COUNT.

chugging along...slowly

hello, all. sorry i've been mia this week too...though i'm not nearly as busy as bri, i somehow keep finding that it's suddenly 1am and i don't know where the day went!

anyway, i'm still here...plodding along. i weighed myself yesterday and was 1 lb less than last friday. yay. hopefully it will be a little less tomorrow. it's amazing that you can gain 3 lbs. in one week so easily, and then it takes for-freaking-ever to lose it. rahh. i could never be an actress an have to gain/lose weight for roles. well, i could gain it no problem, but losing it again would suck. i don't know how they do it.

so...the seasons are changing here and therefore so is my wardrobe. and i'm coming to the realization (again) that i really have gained some weight since last winter..since none of my trusty black pants or favorite winter/fall skirts seem to look as good as i remember see, i've never been a scale person. i never even had a scale until i started this blog! i'm fairly muscular and i have a slightly larger frame, so numbers just never seem to make sense to me (and they still don't). i've always felt like the numbers on the scale don't make sense with my pants/clothes sizes... so even when i was "skinny", i don't really know how much i weighed. part of the mental challenge of losing weight this time is i don't really know what i'm aiming for. i'm pretty sure i was around 165 last winter...and i have a feeling that my skinniest adult weight (in 2005) was somewhere around 155-160. is 145 even realistic for me? who knows.

the other frustrating thing is that even when i do lose weight, the clothing numbers don't really change--they just look better. even when i was "skinny" in 2005, i was still a 12 or a 32...granted, i can't wear those same 32's in public right now...but still--sometimes i feel like ok, even if i do make all these radical changes and get skinny, i'm still going to be the biggest size on the rack just because that's my frame. rahh. so, part of me hates the scale, but then in a lot of ways, that's really the only concrete way to measure my progress.

anyway...those are my random thursday thoughts. what about you? any thoughts on scale vs. clothing sizes?

goals for today:
20 min walking after pilates
journal everything
water. why is it so hard to drink water?

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Going up

Sorry I've been a little MIA this week. You haven't been missing anything interesting over here. I've been eating as well as can be excepted during conference/too much work mode. And exercise? Um, no. Though I consider walking around all day in heels a workout in and of itself (don't be fooled ladies, even dansko heels are painful). My weight is still climbing, which is a real bummer. I was expecting it just stay put for a while. But I'm not that alarmed...I can tell that I feel thinner because I keep wanting to go shopping he he he. I have 3 flex points left for the next two days, so it's going to be a little rough, because I won't have the time to exercise.

Monday, October 22, 2007

life after 10/20...

ahhh...i am so so so so so glad that october 20 is over. you see, most of my students have been preparing for this oct. 20 concert since was a concert where 3000 kids (nope, not a typo. there were actually 3000 kids) played a concert together and everyone had to have their parts 100% memorized. and we teachers had to keep these 3000 kids from going bezerk during the 2.5 hour concert and all of the bajillion rehearsals. (lucky me, i got to be in charge of the 3.5-6 year olds for my instrument!!) anyway, i've been looking forward to 10/21 for a really long time. now i'm ready for all my students to move on to something new. and for some reason, it feels like a mini-spring to me. like a fresh start. and i think it's transferring over to the weight-loss exercise facet of life too...

anyway, i've been doing ok at the eating thing. being out of the house from 6 am-midnight on saturday really seems to do the trick. i managed to make it through the weekend with 20 flex left. i exercised today and still have 3 points left. maybe it is just the enormous weight that has been lifted from my shoulders from the concert being over, but i'm feeling oddly positive about trying to lose weight...i dunno, but i hope it sticks around.

goals for tomorrow:
walk 20 min after pilates
write down everything i eat
water. must drink water.

Sunday, October 21, 2007

Here we go

This is going to be a really really rough week over here - I've got myself scheduled to get way too many things done, so my postings will be short - sorry about that. It has been a really beautiful weekend (warm!) out here. My friend's wedding was really nice and they had the funniest toast I have ever seen. Aaaaand, they had three types of wedding cake plus platefuls of mini desserts. I loaded up my plate (I couldn't help it) but couldn't finish - maybe my body is starting to learn enough is enough. Or maybe I ate too much for dinner. Or appetizers. Oh well. Anyway, I had "fancy" dinner all three nights this weekend so I'm thrilled that I finished off the weekend having only consumed 22 flex points.

Dietwise, I'm really in trouble for the next few weeks. I'm heading into work-week-of-horror beginning with two days of conference, then later in the week I'm headed to Europe for 2.5 weeks (one week is conference). So we'll see how my weight does.

Speaking of conferences, I'm having a lot of issues with "business casual". I just wasted a whole hour trying things on from my closet. Clothes are either too tight or too big now, except for my skirts which look great but I don't have a top to wear with them, unless they are party skirts (with sequin details, etc) which are not so business casual. Sigh. Why can't I just wear my jeans? WHY? Is anyone else as clueless as I am about tops for skirts? Meg - help me.

Friday, October 19, 2007

up up up

yea, i'm up today too. not a real big surprise considering all of the super-high-cal b-day eating...i was a bad bad girl yesterday too and didn't really count very well...and i ate another piece of cake (before throwing the rest away), 2 mint truffles and 3 pieces of pizza for dinner. yikes.

so. back to work i go.

I thought I had finished that already

I thought I finished with the 140s, but apparently I'm back for a re-do. I weighed 140 this morning, putting me up 2.5 pounds from last week. BOO.

Thursday, October 18, 2007

The all purpose treadmill

Well, my shoes came and they are pointy. This is a problem. Unlike Meg, who loves impractical shoes, I wear orthopaedic shoes. Even my dress shoes have only 1.5-2" heels that are w i d e. So these are a challenge for me. The husband stared at me in them in disbelief. Anyway, I needed some practice in them so I don't look totally silly this weekend. So I wore them tonight around the house, I made dinner in them, I sat by the fire in them. And I did my treadmill warm up in them. Let me just say, if you've never broken in your shoes by getting on a treadmill in them, you are missing out. After just 5 minutes (incline 5%, 2 MPH), I felt like I was walking as normally as I could be...
Today was ok: ate 23, exercised 3, flex left 0. Weigh in tomorrow is going to be horrible, but oh well.

the birthday report...

well, thanks everyone for your b-day wishes! it seriously made my day!

yesterday was the big day, but the festivities began on tuesday night...we went to dinner with some friends at my favorite semi-fancy restaurant. i had an unbelievably yummy pear salad with gorgonzola, mixed greens and i can't remember what kind of dressing...but it was awesome...followed by a roasted half chicken (don't worry, i didn't eat all of it!) with olive oil mashed potatoes...followed by my very favorite dessert in the whole wide world: banana cream pie tartlet in a coconut shell drizzled with caramel and chocolate. oh. my. gosh. i loooooovvvvveeee that dessert. so...that meal probably took up the rest of my flex points...but it was worth it.

then yesterday i went out to lunch with my grandparents at the olive garden. i got the soup, salad and breadsticks and had the minestrone, which i believe is the lowest calorie item on the menu. i didn't do too badly and only had 2 breadsticks. but, i did receive a box of my very favorite mint truffles from my g-pa and i had a few of those...oops.

then last night, the bro brought home a chocolate cake...which i had a small piece of...and he also gave me this:

(my family is big on funny gifts. this is definitely funny.... almost as funny as last year when he and his friends went to the salvation army and bought a bunch of random items and wrapped them up...including a sticky doorknob (literally, it had jam on it), a toy telescope, a t-ball trophy from 1984, a bowling ball and a really nasty used lunch box.)

maybe next year i'll get "the old fashioned carnival hot dog maker"...or "the old fashioned nachos & cheese maker" or "the old fashioned carnival cotton candy maker" can only hope. (and by the way, yes, these products really do exist. they're all part of "the nostalgia electrics series", which both my brother and i agree are really only good for nostalgia...)

so anyway, i had some of that popcorn...(oil popped)...and a few of the latest evil baked good of the week:

so. it was definitely a good b-day. and now i definitely need to get back on track and start counting again!

goals for today: 20 min walking after pilates and stay within points!...and throw away the leftover cake!

Free food day 3

Well folks, it looks like free food day (plus long work days) are catching up to me. Last night the scale showed a 3lb gain over my normal nightly weigh in. I was expecting a gain this week (since I'd lost 5.5 lbs in two weeks), but I wasn't expecting it to be this extreme. I'll guzzle the water today to try and get it down in time for tomorrow, but I'm not optimistic. Last night's food fest was "Thai", which wasn't very good (why why why do people destroy Thai food? Why is it always so sweet? If you want dessert, get dessert, but don't drown your curries and noodles in sugar - yuck.) But, I stayed late at work yesterday and needed the dinner. Oh well. By the time I came home, it was bed time and I didn't get any exercise in (ate 27, exercised 0). So I've got no flexies left for today. Dun dun dun....

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Free food week, day 2

This week is free food week at the lab. We have a huge grant due (and I have a paper and a talk to finish up), so we're having free dinner every night this week. A friend in lab also gave a "pizza talk" in the department, so of course I had to go for moral support. And eat the free pizza (lunch). For dinner, we had Indian food brought in. I love Indian food and was hungry, so I had a plate of food. Bad bad Bri. Oh well. At least I controlled my portions and when I got home I actually got on the treadmill!!! (This is shocking, really.) I'm not used to watching TV (the only TV we have is tiny and in front of my treadmill), but watching a little has made me want to watch more, so hopefully that can help me up my exercise a little bit, especially at night.

I wasted so much time a work today and regret it now (isn't that how it always is?) - I'm going to a good friend's wedding this weekend but it's outside and it's cold. I'm looking for shoes with a something a little more than my normal dressy sandals. I spent a lot of time looking online for shoes (too lazy to go to the store). I want some black d'orsays with a shortish heel. I found cute ones (but a 3" heel - I don't think so) at endless, but they sold out already. And I found these ones at but they don't have them yet in the store. What's up with that? And why are there so many ugly shoes? What can't the cute ones be, um, under 100? I'm sorry, but dress shoes are just not worth that much money to me. Anyway, the girl said they would probably be in this week if they are up on the web. risky - should I just overnight them? Oh yeah, I'm wearing this dress (which I notice now that I looked for a picture that the model is wearing them with similar shoes!) with a black pashmina with yellow/gold/orange/red embroidery from my India trip.

Anyway: ate 26, exercised 3, flex left 7.

Monday, October 15, 2007

Hungry Hippo

Oh man. I was a hungry hippo today. I just could not stop eating. It was so bad that I couldn't say no to a free slice of pizza. It was tasty, but not THAT tasty. Sigh. Oh well. Hopfully, this doesn't continue through the rest of the week or I'm going to really have to step up on the exercise since I'm low on flex points.

I also felt heavy today - I think it's just because I feel like I've been eating too much (and have been since Friday). I switched exercise pants because its cold now, and they really emphasize my love handles and saddlebags. I hope those guys are the next pounds off :)

ate 25, exercised 2, flex left 10

I got the image here.


somehow life got extremely busy all of a sudden. but, i'm not complaining, because it kept me away from the cupboard!

i managed to make it through the weekend with 25 flex points in tact.(!) and the weekend included homemade gingerbread belgian waffles with ice cream and pears (yumm!)...and late night bulgogi (?) korean spicy beef and rice. somehow, i kept snacking to a minimum...i think working all night friday, then being out of the house all day saturday and having friends over on sunday is the magic answer to my usual weekend problems...the bro and his brownies returned, but i'm actually getting sick of them, so i only had a little taste (which i did count).

but...this week is the "birthday week"...i know we're going out somewhere really good and i will definitely need all of those flex points...hopefully there won't be any cake(s). last year a friend brought over a huge carrot cake w/ cream cheese frosting (my favorite! ok, actually all cake is my favorite...)...and i think i gained like 20 lbs because i pretty much ate the whole thing in about a week. and that was in addition to the chocolate cake that my brother made. yikes. that was bad. no cake(s) in the house this year...

Sunday, October 14, 2007

In the vicinity

I love fall. I love fall so much, I'm spending this evening in a fall moment, neglecting my school work. he he he. Things in my vicinity:
  1. my flannels
  2. my slippers
  3. one of the cats
  4. a hot wood burning stove fireplace insert (new! it's sooo wonderful)
  5. tea
  6. apple crisp with real whip cream with vanilla bean
  7. the boy

But I earned the apple crisp - I was on the treadmill this morning and painted beadboard for 3 hours this afternoon. I've made up a big pot of steel cut oats with flax, apples, cinnamon, and nutmeg for this week. I've never added apples before and its just sweet enough that I don't need to add sugar. Am loving it.

today: ate 28, exercised 9, flex left 13.

Saturday, October 13, 2007


accounting...greek food festival +15, flex points -15 :)

ate 35, exercised 0, flex left 20

(Saturday's amendment: ate 28, exercised 1 (I'll do better tomorrow), flex left 13)

Friday, October 12, 2007


officially back to where i started (well, for the christmas challenge anyway). i am 175. how did i go down a pound from yesterday? hmm, i guess i don't really care.

now i just have to keep brother=major help!


I'm completely baffled. I've been weighing in at 138 all week and thought it was some kind of bizarre error, but for my "official" weight this morning I was 137.5. Holy Moly. I haven't seen a number that low in a while but I'm really excited. I don't really understand the loss since I lost a fair bit last week as well, and I haven't been (u-hem) the best little exerciser lately (thanks cough, I love you too). I fully expected to not lose any weight for another few weeks now, but I just hope I stay in the 130s. I loooove the 130s.

Anyway, I've lost 15 pounds so far (and a lot faster than I expected after making only minor changes in my life) and want to lose 10 more. My official goal says 3 more pounds, but as I've said before, I'd really like to weigh less than my husband. I've been that low before - it was my high school weight and my drivers license wouldn't lie, would it? We'll see how it goes from here. I'm just happy to report that I feel like I'm starting to look "normal" again. I saw a college friend recently who I hadn't seen in a few years and he said "You got skinny" - I know it was supposed to be a compliment, but it made me kind of sad - how big was I? I think of where I am now as how I should be, and how I have been for most of my life. Maybe it's just all in my head. Though, no one around here seems to have noticed any change in my figure except for the boy and my lab benchmate (who's a reader - hi!!!), and they both know I've been back on the dieting train. At least that means I was hiding the weight well? maybe???

Oh, and my progress pants almost fit! there is just a little pulling on the slit pockets from the side, but the butt part looks a-ok :)

(Image credit)

Thursday, October 11, 2007

strawberry fields forever...

the more stuff i eat from kashi, the more stuff from kashi i get addicted to... and here's the latest yummy discovery: strawberry fields cereal.

i used to be a pretty big fan of the special k red berries cereal, however, i could eat like 3 "servings" and still be, make that ravenous. so, that is why i'm a huge fan of this kashi stuff. it really does fill you up. how do they do it? it's 120 cal, 0 fat and 1 fiber (2 pts) for 1 cup. in general, i'm trying to get off of the cereal wagon, but this does the trick when i get a craving...

oh, and if you shop at target and they sell food at your target, a ton of kashi stuff is on sale for half price this week! i got some funny looks when i bought..umm..about 8 boxes of the kashi tlc trail mix granola bars...which, by the way have helped me kick those stupid 90 cal quaker granola bars that don't fill you up at all...

food journal: hmm...i'm at 20 points today, out of flex points and no exercise today :( i'm going to try and walk for 30 min...and i think it's 0 point vegetable soup for dinner...

nothing like results... keep you motivated.

i did a little early weigh-in this morning...and the good news is that i'm down 2 lbs. from where i was last week, which is great! (insert big sigh of relief here)...however, i am still about 1 lb. over my "official" christmas challenge start weight. which is evidence of just how EVIL baked goods can be. well, especially if you eat as many as i did.

the bro is out of town until tomorrow, so i've had a nice little repreve from the chocolate assault. i'm feeling more in control this week though, and hopefully i can keep it up when he returns tomorrow and inevitably busts out the brownies.

ok...sorry this is so short! i'm running astonishingly low on interesting things to say...

Wednesday, October 10, 2007


I've been thinking a lot about sustainability lately. I think that my re-found eating habits are sustainable - we eat pretty well at this house, and most of it is "whole". I don't feel limited or "on a diet" when faced with good foods, even on weekends. I think this'll be great for me come maintenance time, but I'm really worried about my exercise. Living in Boston, I get a fair amount of walking in, but I have not fallen into a good exercise pattern. It's not a habit. And I think it's because I haven't found exercise that I like. I've been asking to boy to go on walks with me (we go all yuppified, with hot drinks in hand) but walking your neighborhood still isn't quite enough. Treadmill speed walking while watching the only tv I get will still be good for me, but I'm just haven't gotten into it, if you know what I mean. Pilates is a chore, so I barely get around to it. Hrm. Any ideas?

FJ: I dipped into my flex "account" today because I forgot my lunch at home (GASP!) and ended up eating pb+honey, plus some dumpling that a friend was sharing. Then I came home and was madly craving toasty bread with yummy creamy cheese all over it to go with the soup. I've never made this soup before but it's good. Highly recommended. Anyway: ate 26, exercised 2, leaving me 8 flex for tomorrow (not bad considering my weekend!).

Tuesday, October 9, 2007

Soup of the Week

Mmmm...the house smells good. I've just made a huge pot of Red Bean and Bacon Soup. As you know, I love soups. But I especailly love soups that are low fat (I used turkey bacon) and high in protein and fiber...on a cold day while I'm recovering from a cough, its the perfect thing. Now, if I can just get of my big butt and exercise, I should have enough points left over to enjoy the soup with a thick slab of hearth bread with some double-cream Brie (insert jokes here).

I've actually been having a lot of trouble exercising this week because of my cold-triggered asthma, Any irregular breathing makes me wheeze and cough. I can walk and that's about it (but, walking slow takes a lot of time). So my plan for the rest of the week is to walk to the subway instead of taking the bus - if I do it each way, it'll give me 3 activity points (about 300 calories).

FJ: ate 21, exercised 0, flex left 12

PSA: Transition Clothes

in case anyone is in the market for some cute and cheap transition clothes, i thought i'd post a link to some things i'm selling on EBAY...about 3-4 times a year my mom (who is a grand champion shopper) cleans out her closet and sends me a couple of boxes of stuff to sell on EBAY. she also cleans out my younger sister's closet too. and i sell stuff that i don't wear anymore also. i am seriously behind on ebaying stuff, so in the next 3-4 weeks, i am going to try and get rid of all of the fall/winter items.

EBAY can be a scary place to buy used stuff, but this is all nice stuff (promise!)--very well cared for, smoke/pet free...most of it has been worn 1-2 times (seriously) and a lot of it still has the tags on.

i've got stuff from Gap, Banana Republic, J Crew, Lucy, Lucky Jeans, Ann Taylor, Ann Taylor shoes, bags and other accessories. i start most of the listings between .99-5.99

so, if you will be passing through the 8-10-12 range or the Medium-Large range and want some cheap clothes to tide you over until you get to your goal size, come check it out:

my ebay listings

(most of the really good stuff will be listed in the next few days...)

an express post

ok, yesterday i was super super good: ate 24.5 and exercised 3. even managed to only eat 1 small piece of the yummy pizza that my bro brought home for dinner and instead had a big salad.

today i am the sleeping monster though! it must be contagious...through the internet...

Monday, October 8, 2007

Sleeping monster

20 points eaten

0 points exercised

3 hours napped

1/2 of my scheduled work got done

I was obviously attacked by the sleeping monster. He's very scary and counterproductive to school work and weightloss efforts. Oh well, I'll do better tomorrow.

Sunday, October 7, 2007

i couldn't help it either! has been one of those weekends!

i decided to reset my flex on fridays instead of we'll see how it goes. so, far so good, i think.

yesterday...i was better than a lot of saturdays, but i still need to make some huge changes in my weekends. honestly, what is the deal?! why does the "shovel food in mouth button" get pushed every saturday morning? well, anyway, i ended up with 36 points eaten, no exercise.

sunday...well, today i had dinner at my grandparents. enough said, right? yes, it was a full-tilt all-out food fest: homemade rolls, roast beef, potatoes, homemade poppy seed dressing, real ice cream and the bowl of dove chocolates that kept getting pushed at me by my chocoholic grandpa. did i mention the rolls? well, i really was trying to be good---my gma even said, "meg, you aren't eating very much!"...but i still ended up with 38 points today. (yikes!!!) so, i've got 7 points left for the rest of the week--which i'm totally ok with. for some reason week days are sooo much easier.

this is the first weekend ive actually kept track of everything i've eaten though--which is a major victory. even though i am absolutely horrified by the does really explain why i've been gaining and not losing though. hello! i felt like i was being good and still ended up with 36 and 38!?

goals for tomorrow:
60 min walking
best behavior! count everything.

I couldn't help it

Really, I couldn't. This weekend was a constant stream of food. Delicious, rich evil foods. It went something like this:

1. high tea at the Boston Park Plaza

2. cheese platters. mmm.

3. Korean bbq

4. "clubbing" - um, yeah, I'm just not that type of girl. I felt very lucky that clubs in Boston are only open for 3 hours. (No cals consumed here though, in fact, that was apparently 6 APs)

5. Return on the cheese platters. Add in chips and other evils.

Total: 45 points consumed (Wowzers!), 7 points burned, 13 flex left. (Sunday was better: 20 points consumed, 2 points burned, 13 flex left) The scary thing is that I really was being good. I promise!

But really, I couldn't help it. Look! (I forgot to get a pic of the Korean bbq. also beautiful.) Don't be fooled by the tea goodies platter - there was more - that pic doesn't show the scones and the tea-infused creme brulee.

Friday, October 5, 2007

Heading into another weekend...

This'll be a quick post. FJ: ate 24, exercised 0, flex left 31.

This week's goals - exercise if my coughing and asthma will allow it.

I'm headed to another bridal shower/bachelorette "sleep"over weekend thingamajig. The last time one of these happened, I realized how much weigh tI'd gained because I felt ginormous the whole weekend and felt really bad about myself. I also ate a lot. That was right before Meg had the idea to start this blog. This time, I'm hoping to do a bit better, in both categories. I refashioned my new halter top (I added some material to the bust, it was too low for me - if you don't got 'em, don't flaunt 'em) so I'm ready to go. Wish me luck.

up up and away

harumph. well...let's not get into exact details...but i am very nearly back where i started.

am i surprised? not so much. i've been supremely naughty on the eating front. i am proof that you can't be on board for 4 days and then be a slacker for the next 3. the weight will creep back.

sigh. so. the mission for today is to not get depressed about this and not use it as an excuse to eat. i need to stay on track and be good for this whole weekend. i did just get back from pilates, so already i feel like i'm putting a better foot forward this weekend.

from the brownie front: yes, there was yet another batch of brownies made last night (#5). no, i am not making this up. i really wish i was. anyway, the bro and i had a little scuffle about said brownies and while i'm probably being childish, at least i didn't eat any of them. i got upset at him for telling me that i "wasn't allowed" to have any and he kept asking in a teasing sort of way how many points there were in a brownie (as he ate 1/2 a pan). i'm sure he was trying to be helpful in a little brother sort of way, but i really don't react well to being told i can't have something (food-wise) by members of my family...even if it is for my own good. it literally makes me *furious* and makes me want to eat massive quantities of whatever it is that i'm forbidden to eat. i don't get it. but, this is a huge issue for me...(um, yea, can you tell that my mom used to tell me i wasn't allowed to eat certain things because they were "for my brother.") anyway, sorry to go all oprah on you...i think i just need to buck up and stop feeling sorry for myself and start making better choices. and just ignore the fact that some people in my family can eat 6000 calories and i can't, even though i'm insanely jealous and find it extremely annoying. good news is that i went and walked very fast on my treadmill instead of eating the brownies like i wanted to...sigh.

here's to a weekend of being good! (whiny, but good)


YAY!!!! Good weigh in this week: 140! This time I didn't even have to try and convince my scale of it. I'm trying to not get too excited though, since I hope to start exercising again next week, and I've been sick this week, I have to assume that some of that loss will be coming back. But for now, I'm really happy. So, if the 140 is "real", I have 5 more pounds to lose for the Christmas Challenge.

The numbers aside, I did something new yesterday: I used one notch down on my belt. This means that I've lost an inch or so around my upper hips/love handles. My standard measurements haven't changed much, so I was glad to see this shrinking!

Yesterday's FJ: ate 20, exercised 0, flex left 17.

Thursday, October 4, 2007

wednesday update yesterday i didn't quite make the 60 min mark for walking and my eating wasn't super great, but it wasn't bad either. i managed to only eat 1 brownie from the pan that my brother made instead of 5, which is what i was doing last weekend. apparently, brownies are the temptation of the week. (this is the 4th batch he's made since last friday). why must he always have chocolate baked goods around? rahh. anyway, ended w/ 30 pts eaten, exercised 2.

some good news on the horizon...especially in light of the christmas challenge:
1. skinny bro is getting shipped to china (literally) for 4 weeks in nov-dec! i am excited for him to go, but i'm also very excited that the house will be free of junk food for at least those 4 weeks...(for those who have been reading us from the beginning, remember how i lost like 8 lbs in about 2 weeks when i first started? yea, the brother was out of town then...)

2. i have signed myself up for a 3rd pilates session every week. i'm contemplating getting back into yoga too...

so anyway....goals for today:
20 min walking after pilates
count everything
water: drink some

Wednesday, October 3, 2007


For most people, this wouldn't be exciting. But for me, it is. I wear "fitted" jeans. And I have been blessed with thighs. So generally my jeans are tight on the thighs. I have a pair of jeans that are always tight on the thighs (i.e. they are stretched the max, you know what I mean?) - but now they are "loose" (it's all relative)!!! Check it out!

Did you see that? I can grab a whole pinch full! Ok ok ok, I know you didn't want to see a huge picture of my thigh, but I'm pretty excited. Hubby said it's now obvious that I've lost weight, especially in the thighs. YAY!!!

The evil cold is still preventing me from exercising (and thankfully eating) - it triggered my asthma so now I cough incessantly. I'm hoping my medications will start working soon so I can get back on the treadmill/pilates/thera-band schedule and I can lose some more weight! Today I've had 18 points to eat, but am heading to the kitchen for a 1/2 pb+j - so I'll log it as 23 for the day. Flex left 17.

Tuesday, October 2, 2007

why being good is easier

ok ok...sorry about all the whining yesterday. i did actually get my act together today. i exercised 6 points (60 min pilates and 60 min walking), and ate 25..mostly healthy stuff.

and, i will probably have to learn this over and over and over...but it is in fact easier to just be good. there's a lot less guilt, less mental anguish, fewer i-think-i'm-going-crazy type thoughts, fewer are-my-jeans-going-to-fit-tomorrow questions and less junk food fatigue.

soooo...thanks for all of your helpful comments and for reading my crazy posts even on the bad days!

goals for tomorrow:
60 min walking
count everything
no more silly business


I am actively trying to eat more today (no WAY!) - I'm just not hungry - I blame the cold. I had 14 tonight and then had some jam and toast which puts me at 16 for today.

Since I don't have anything else to say today, go over to grrrl power and check out soap box girl's fashion show! She's looking gooood. If I go shopping this weekend, I blame her!

Monday, October 1, 2007

rebel without a cause

ummm....this is me. a rebel without a cause. but apparently i have chosen myself as the cause to rebel against.

i seriously don't know what my problem is. i just can't get on board the weight loss train. i just keep gaining. i could blame my schedule, stress, working at home, eating out too much and the endless parade of chocolate chips, cookies, brownies, ice cream and chipotle that is brought in the house or eaten in front of me by you-know-who....

but really it's just me. i have no willpower.

ok, sometimes i have willpower. but it runs out after about 72 hours.

ay ay ay. i just need to get over it and stop putting food in my mouth. why is this so hard? bri, remember how i've always said that if i ever get too fat you are to put duct tape over my mouth and tie me to a treadmill? might be a good time... just as a precaution. an ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure, right?

ok. tomorrow i stop being a food lunatic and start counting again. umm...but seriously, am i the only crazy person out here in the weightlossblogosphere who sometimes doesn't really care about losing weight? (gasp!) who sometimes really just likes brownies and hates hates hates hates counting points? (oh my!) who really resents having to exercise "portion control" and/or "self-control?" (horrors!) who for some reason doesn't like being "satisfied" by "fake treats" that are in the 1-2 point range instead of real treats that are in the 5-10 point range? (scream!)

yea yea, i know. time to be a grown up, face reality and get back on board.

goals for tomorrow:
water--drink it
walk 20 min after pilates
count all points
no more silly business.


My cold has gone evil on me - a running nose has been added to sore throat and I'm quite miserable. I know I shouldn't complain a cold, but this one is not nice. Anyway, when I got home tonight, threw some rice in a pot to start making jook (congee), a Chinese-style rice porridge that I am nuts for, especially when I'm sick. It is basically really mushy over cooked rice in lots of water or broth with a dab of meat. It is topped with cilantro and green onions and sometimes other treats. I guess it is the Chinese version of chicken noodle soup. Asians I know either love it or hate it - the ones who hate it associate it with being sick.
What do you eat when you are sick?
FJ: ate 20, exercised 0, flex left 20
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The Buffet

I've just returned from 5 days of eating buffet for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. I'm quite proud of myself for staying within my points - I have 20 left for the next four days. The buffet actually had a lot of healthy options - fruits, salads, etc. For breakfast they even had strawberries and vanilla soy milk to go with my kashi! I did indulge a little by having small desserts, but I did not eat a single "conference cookie" - I thought, if Meg can have them all over her house, certainly I can avoid them for a few days.

Anyways, the conference was actually pretty good (besides almost losing my temper with one of my labmates about 50 times) - the setting was beautiful and the weather was perfect for kayaking - I was out for a total of 3.5 hours and saw lots of fish, swans, and herons.

I'm sick now though - I have some sort of evil sore thraot + fever combo. I also have TON on work to do this week. Boo. To combat the sore throat, I'm drinking pineapple juice, but its taking a toll on the points. At 3 points per cup (and no thoughts of exercise) its going to be rough going. Oh well.