process vs. results

so, i was flipping through channels the other day, while on the treadmill (yay!) and happened upon a sound bite that got me thinking...(i have no idea what the people were talking about)

anyway, one of the commentators said that our culture tends to be focused on results instead of process. and when people are trying to make changes in their lives, focusing just on results is one of the worst things you can do.

interesting.

i think that is at least part of my problem. i focus way way way too much on that size i wish i were, or the magic number on the scale...the ever elusive "someday when i'm skinny." and at least for me, focusing on results makes me depressed, anxious and impatient. i want results NOW. no, actually i want results YESTERDAY. and i'd rather they just magically happen instead of requiring actual work.

so, whoever it was that i saw on the tv was talking about having a destination in mind, but focusing on the process instead of the destination.

for me, i think that means focusing on what i'm doing every day instead of constantly thinking about "when i'm skinny" and wondering why i'm not there yet. so that's what i've been working on for the past few days. more walking, less snacking, smaller portions, more water. you know, the basics.

and thinking back to 04-05 when i was actually much skinnier than i am now...i'm pretty sure that's how i got there then. i wasn't counting points, i wasn't weighing myself, i wasn't even trying to lose weight. i just was involved with lots of other exciting projects and discovered yoga and was eating healthier because it felt good. hmm.

so, i think i'm going to not weigh myself. resurrect the daily cardio/pilates abs routine. keep eating healthy foods, stop snacking when i'm not really hungry. eat less, move more. and hopefully in the process, get back into my old jeans again.

It, I am

i think i was tagged by thickchick about...umm...a week ago. (sorry, things have been a little crazy here at mi casa) so, here is everything you wanted to know about me:

10 years ago (1998):
1. i started my freshman year of college.
2. was obsessed with abercrombie and fitch jeans. (?!)
3. struggled through my first semester of college music theory. ouch.
4. routinely went to bed between 2-4 am, and took a 4-hour nap in the afternoon.
5. thought i was very busy and grown up, but in fact was not

5 things to do today:
1. errands: post office, bank, groceries etc.
2. start pillowcase sewing project
3. come to terms with my basement...ugh
4. laundry
5. phonecalls i've been putting off for awhile

5 jobs i've had:
1. file clerk for medical office
2. data entry for medical office
3. floral designer
4. production designer
5. freelance musician/music teacher

5 things i'd do if i had millions:
1. hire a personal chef and housekeeper
2. pay off debts of everyone i know/love
3. start a childrens music program in an underprivileged neighborhood
4. travel
5. start a foundation for finishing funds for indie filmmakers

i tag...oh i don't know. is there anyone who hasn't done this yet?