well, yesterday was another one "for the books." honestly, i don't know what comes over me sometimes. i know i'm not actually crazy, but sometimes...well, i wonder. it was definitely an emotional eating/stress eating fest...mix up a little anxiety, sadness, tiny bit of boredom, a lot of procrastination and some general rebellion against the points system and losing weight in general...and voila, you have a day of food debauchery.
well, this needs to stop since i really don't want to be wearing mumus like fat homer anytime soon...or actually ever.
eating less...why is this such a hard concept for me to embrace?
you know what was bugging me? well, a lot of stuff..but one of the top things is this:
i'm completely obsessed with cupcakes, wedding cakes and cake in general. it's been a long time {semi-secret} dream of mine to either own a cupcake store or to make wedding cakes professionally. seriously. i really really really really really really want to. but i can't. or rather i'm too afraid to because i'm pretty sure i would get ginormously fat because of my lack of self control in the face of any baked goods. a pretty good part of this weight loss quest is that i hope i can get a handle on myself so that i can someday live out my dreams of being a fabulous wedding cake baker and/or cupcake purveyor.
anyway, that's what set me off. i wanted to bake and try a bunch of different recipes, but i was pretty sure i'd end up eating 90% of what i made...so instead i just ate a ton of other stuff because i was mad that i have no self control and can't be a pastry chef. (self-fulfilling prophecy...i know) pretty crazy huh. like i said...sometimes i think i should be committed.
anyway, today was better, i still have 4 points left. (!?) no exercise though.
SOOO...my goal for the week is 15 activity points by saturday and no more crazy eating.
{cupcake image: miette }
9 comments:
Ah... fat homer. He makes me want to laugh and cry.
I have days like that too. Sometimes I just wanna eat. and eat crap. In fact, I think everyone's been there. And I totally know what you mean about the cupcake thing. It's not totally the same, but I've always wanted to bake stuff with the kids. But HELLO! How can I when I can't be trusted with a spoon in hand near an open bowl of cookie dough!?
Whenever we watch pastry chefs on the food network or one of those "challenge" shows, I'm always like, HOW DO THOSE PEOPLE STAY THIN??
love the picture of the cupcakes. And I really do want to go walking with you. I will email you in the near future.
Oh man, those cupcakes look yummy. Skinnify today reminded me of Cranky Fitness...I always want to reach into my screen and take one of those cupcakes.
For me, cupcakes are a real trigger food - in fact, I think it is my only one. Which is strange b/c I normally don't like sweet sweet things. Anyway, you remember the Magnolia aftermath as well as I do...
mmm...i'm so making diet pop cupcakes tonight now!!
but the mumu...yikes!
Why is everyone talking about cupcakes today? Is it a big conspriacy? Meg, Cranky, and now craftzine: http://www.craftzine.com/blog/
???
mmmm...cupcakes...
boo cupcakes! The secret is over cook them so they're really dry and kinda gross. i'm completely over them because that's all I remember when I think of them. If only I could do the same for cookies.
If you ever wear a mumu I'll come over there and...I don't know, make you pay for my plane ticket or something.
I had a terrible eat like crazy and know I'm being bad but sorta rebelling day yesterday too. Let's get over it IMMEDIATELY and pretend it was a bulking day or something.
katieo--yea, i think the same thing about all of the people on the food network. really, how do they do it???? i really really want to know...
bridget--yea, i'm still recovering from the magnolia aftermath...and it's been how long??? i kind of wonder though if i were around it more, would it lose it's power? you know, like how i have flowers around all the time but i keep them in the cooler instead of putting them in my house like a normal person...? hmm. not sure if i should try and find out! ha ha
marie--yea, mumus=yikes. what are diet pop cupcakes?
randi--"if you ever wear a mumu i'll come over there and---i don't know make you pay for my plane ticket or something." LOL!!! but yea, time to get back on track...
Is it wrong that I want you to become a cupcake chef? I think you'd be brilliant at it. Don't you think you'd get sick of cupcakes after a while? Maybe it would stop being a problem? But I do understand what you mean about it not being the best occupational choice for watching your weight. It seems like most chefs are a little chubby, from all the taste testing, etc.
Sorry for contributing to the problem!
And oh, Lord, someone mentioned Magnolia cupcakes, those are sooo good.
Some days are just about overindulgence and its gonna happen. At least for me it tends to run its course when the guilt piles up high enough and the novelty wears off. (Or the pants get too tight). I bet tomorrow will be a lot better.
(And I suspect if you became a Professional Purveyor of Cupcakes you'd go hog wild for a while but eventually they'd be a lot less tempting 'cause you'd be smelling them all the time. Maybe you'd crave ice cream or something instead!)
I'll open a cupcake shop with you!
Secret dream of mine as well...
I hear ya, I don't bake cause I would eat it all. My husband doesn't have a sweet tooth, so guess who eats it all?!
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